THIS IS MY TIME

Weeks ago, I have been thinking about, "Nalipasan na ba ako ng thrill and fun at the age of 27?"

I have been surrounded by my batchmates, friends and even team members who are young and in their 20's. Basically, our ages don't really stretch afar. Yet, at some point, I do observe how they act, they decide, how they look on social media, their interests and their passion.

I know for real that, I was once like that. But how come it was just a short spark in my time line? Nalipasan na ba ako? Nawala na ba yung passion? Nawala na ba yung excitement sa katawan ko?

I was once so passionate about arts, music, about theatre. I was once so passionate about civic organizations and helping kids and people in the streets. I was once so happy, energetic, and very sociable. 

Nalipasan nga ba talaga ako?

Luckily, I was able to open-up to my husband about my feels and thoughts. And he told me, "Di ka nalipasan, maaga ka lang nag-mature. Maaga lang nag-bago yung priorities natin sa buhay."

That made me realise that he was right. Di ako nalipasan, di nawala yung passion. My priorities and my time allocation just changed because I have different goals now. 

At this very moment, my main goal is to be productive at work and be in a career that can sustain my needs. Now, my passion is to be the best momma for Uno Boy even though I work 8 hours away from him. I always make sure that whenever we reach back home, I can still play with him. I can still bathe, feed and massage my little Uno Boy. 

And for sure, if I happen to see any paintings, any good books, or any great theatre act, I will still be able to appreciate such.  If I happen to have a chance to have good times with friends, I will still be that funny and energetic Jen with a bottle of beer in my hand. BECAUSE PASSION IS STILL THERE. My time is just focused on my family now.

As young adults, most of the time, we are pressured by the timeline of other people around us. It's not bad or wrong anyway. But we should be reminded that everyone has their own stories. We should never forget that everyone's pathways, life, and opportunities are unique in all aspects. 

So just a PRO tip: Enjoy everything you are in right now. We are all lucky we are all still breathing so make the most out of it without comparing your timeline to anyone.